Our life traumas represent an initiation into the realities of the soul; this requiring renunciations but bringing an inner evolution. This initiation leads us to confront death (symbolic or real), horror; to be able to embrace life in its entirety.
Demanding and absolute, it forces us to let go of security, morality, logic, rationality and our attachment to matter, to go beyond dualities to reach a world of paradoxes. This mystery that is the soul is the essence of life, it makes us living beings because they are capable of a relationship with eternity.
We can lead completely “normal” lives, until this moment of confrontation with our soul. She knows, leads us to tests which correspond to learning levers of immense precision; both on their nature and on their intensity. In fact, our “normal” lives, perfectly oiled by the determinism and causality of matter, are not really real, because they do not encompass the entirety of our reality. We are not truly ourselves if the ego reigns as absolute master in a logical, rational, secure universe.
The shock, the trauma (physical or psychological) is of course unexpected (or at least feared) and violent; with an intensity proportional to our capacity to listen and question. This initiation of the soul is both universal and intimate, because it is adapted to our depths. The shock disorients us with its brutality (suffering, loss, pain, burn-out, betrayal, transpersonal experience, premonition, etc.) that cannot be explained by our usual way of apprehending the world. We must therefore seek meaning at a deeper level of our being; by avoiding analysis, rationalization, chemical straitjacket which will only be an impasse because it is part of the ego.
Initiation only begins when we agree to cross this existential tunnel, when we accept to lose control and our sense of direction; and that we dive into ourselves, opening ourselves to a larger reality totally beyond us. The initiatory experience is then realized, during a moment of clarity, of acceptance; or by an external element (book, meeting, etc.) making us aware of its deeper meaning.
The life lesson begins to sink in, the soul has evolved; the wound may begin to heal. This process can be quick, like taking a lifetime. Or never come true.